Olivia, maybe? (homage to Modigliani)
Austria - May, 1945
During the four days I spent on the farm waiting, I received no message from Olivia. The farmer was busy out of doors and his wife did not speak Italian and since I spoke next to no German we silently went about our business.
I watched the road below through binoculars. The mostly horse-drawn traffic from the south was heavy, but not so great as one would have expected on such an important route. I’d established a good wireless connection with Geordie and sent back routine reports. Very few front-line troops came through. A few Austrian units, a great many S.S. and Wehrmacht police, an occasional armoured car and thousands of carts and trailers, piled high with loot. One could have recognized the column as that of a beaten army from twenty thousand feet above the road. In spite of the loot, there was a dejected lifelessness about the stream of humanity which seemed to affect the entire valley.
On the afternoon of May 8th I had my wireless tuned in to London. I heard Winston Churchill announce victory and I longed to share the news with someone. The house was empty, even the farmer’s wife was out collecting eggs from hiding places around the farmyard.
I went down to the road in the vain hope that I might meet the first of our armoured cars, but I knew that in reality they would come in further to the east. The only thing I saw in a place of surpassing beauty, with the sun shining on the Dolomite spires, was a picture of defeat.
Odd how one’s memory wanders. As I sat on a railing at the edge of the road staring unseeingly at the passing carts, my mind went back to Florence and Olivia. We were standing on the balcony of the house where she was staying with friends. I had come down from the front, in the hills above Bologna. I remember her friends had gone out for the evening and we were alone. The light in their drawing-room was harsh and glacial so we went out on to the balcony which overlooked the Arno from the north bank. It was November and one of the only warm, dry nights that winter.
I remember her making a remark about the electric light in Florence. ‘It is lucky that the light is on at all. Usually it fails in the middle of the afternoon and the opera is cancelled half-way through. Then you have to use candles to read a book and that is never good enough to see properly.’
‘You miss your books, don’t you? I reached for her hand.
‘Yes - of course.’
‘I do, too,’ I smiled at her
‘I know,’ was all she said and then silence.
The night was starless. We could hear the tumbling flood waters of the Arno crashing against the pillars of the broken bridge. There was not a flicker of light from the crazy buildings on the Ponte Vecchio, which we could feel rather than see in the darkness, but there was an endless stream of traffic with pricking headlights crossing into the city over the temporary bridge at the head of the town. Olivia leant back against a window. I couldn’t see her face, so I felt for it in the darkness, holding her hand in mine as she directed me. ‘We could get married here,’ I said. ‘I have four days.’ There was a long pause. I waited. 'Olivia?' She had turned away. Even in the darkness she didn’t look towards me as she spoke. ‘I may never marry - anyone. We must wait until after the war. While the war is on I am not myself.’ Her voice had risen a little. ‘Just now I don’t want the things I would normally want from marriage. I am not sure that you really know me.’ I started to interrupt but she pressed my hand tightly to silence me. Her voice grew husky again. ‘I don’t even know whether I understand myself. Because I see so much suffering, I suffer too. I think I suffer as much - not now when you are here, when it’s dark like this and seems peaceful....’ she took a deep breath. ‘I think I suffer as much as I can stand.’
The roaring of the wide rushing Arno seemed to grow louder as the waters from the drenched mud-cratered hills hurtled against the broken piers. I wondered what I could say to her. After a long pause she spoke again, jerkily. ‘Marriage for me, and I think for you too, is something that needs planning. We know each other only from perfect moments in the Apennines, in places like Positano and on Capri. That is no test. Attraction is not everything.’ I was about to protest, but she reached up and gently put a finger to my lips. ‘We must know more when things are once again normal.’
‘Will they ever be?’ I asked.
‘You don’t know me very well, in spite of everything we have done together. I want you to know me better. You can’t just now because I am unsettled.’
‘I think I know you well enough,’ I protested.
‘You feel upset,’ she said. ‘You shouldn’t. Time is all we want - and peace.’
I didn't see Olivia again for a long time, but I often go back in my mind to that dark balcony in Florence to think. Still now, many years later.
The hot sun and the smell of damp grass on the hillside had made me feel drowsy. I stood up, stretched and turned to climb up to the farm.
Maybe they did get married after the war had ended and they had time – and peace. And perhaps they’d had dinner together that night? I don’t suppose it would have been anything lavish since Europe was engulfed in war at the time. A simple, comforting bowl of Tuscan Bean Soup would probably have been welcome on that November night in Florence. I know I should ask Lola of the delectable Aglio, Olio & Peperoncino blog for advice here, but I do think she would agree that this delicious and nourishing soup would have been just right.
I got this variation from an Italian friend when we lived in Uganda.
500g cannellini beans, soaked in cold water overnight (or you can used tinned beans)
2 tbsp olive oil, plus extra to drizzle
2 garlic cloves, chopped
3 tbsp chopped parsley, plus extra to garnish
1 onion, finely chopped
1 leek, finely chopped
2 carrots, peeled and sliced
4 sticks celery, sliced
1 sprig rosemary
2 tsp chopped fresh oregano
4 bay leaves
1 litre chicken stock
Freshly ground salt and pepper
Freshly grated Parmesan
4 slices toasted ciabatta
Drain the soaked beans and rinse thoroughly, then place in a large saucepan, cover in water and bring to the boil. Boil for 10 minutes, then lower the heat to a simmer and cook for a further 45 minutes with the bay leaves added. (Leave this bit out if you’re using canned beans.)
Heat the oil in a large saucepan and add the garlic. Cook for a minute, add the herbs and the vegetables, then cook for a further 2-3 minutes.
Meanwhile, bring the stock to the boil and add to the vegetables. Simmer for 10 minutes. Add the beans and cook for a further 10 minutes. Adjust the seasoning.
Place the toasted ciabatta in four warmed serving bowls and ladle over the soup. Scatter over the extra parsley, sprinkle with Parmesan and drizzle with olive oil before serving
Do pop over to Shan’s blog where she hosts the What’s Cooking Wednesday for more delicious recipes from bloggers at every point on the compass!
Strange and wonderful.
Is this a whole novel? I would love to read it.
Did you get my book yet? Though billed as a novel it's a true story.
In it Gisela travels through the spring of 1945, a refugee......
Are we all of rushing in circles and circles?
My father was held prisoner by the Italians at Chieti....my husband and I met and lived in Florence..and so we spin on.......
What a great post. Everyone's so colourful today. I like your idea of having a recipe in with your post. I think I'll copy this idea - soon.
What a great piece of writing. Might we get more? Is there more?
I think I'll give the soup a go this weekend. Looks yum!
I do agree! Pasta e Fagioli is perfect for every occasion, greatly so if war is rumbling in the background. Beans and odd bits of mismatched pasta are all folks could afford at such devastating times. The only drawback - for want of a better term - is this particular dish's... "tempestuous" effect: not very romantic. This can be avoided by soaking the beans longer (like overnight), or adding a strip of seaweed during cooking and consequently cutting down on the salt. Seaweed absorbs the gassy elements in the beans. Weird, but true.
Thank you for this exquisite piece of writing. I'm eager for more, empathic with its characters, and familiar with the setting. Did your father recount the events, or leave notes to you? More more more!
Ciao dear Tessa del mio cuore
The story is intriguing, mysterious. The bean soup is quite authentic.
There is a lot of intrigue. I have to come back and read previous posts. I have so many questions and my interest has been stirred. What an exotic life. I love these recipes although I am not one to follow them but the talk of food in a way that is artistic and treated with special care as you do, it's what makes life beautiful.
I love that your recipe is included in the story. It looks wonderful! And your painting looks very much like a Modigliani.
When an extract from the story is so impressive then how will the whole novel will look like? Wonderful! I will get the Novel soon. Thanks for the wonderful recipe - Bean soup
A lovely poignant extract.. poor war torn heart of Olivia. Gorgeous recipe and painting, thank you!
A painting, a story and a recipe. You do spoil your readers and all three are wonderful. The painting is lovely and elegant and oh, so refined and makes me think of that real Olivia in the story of your father's that's intriguing and magically told and makes me want to read more of it. Do you come from a family of talented people?
When I was a child, I loved to sit at the table and read the cookbook and look at the pictures. There must have been a budding chef in me. Some encouragement would have been nice. It's a shame that sometimes we are born to the wrong parents.
I will be looking forward to your published novel and the catalogue of the exhibition of your paintings. Do you think I'm kidding? Surely not!
I followed you over from A Cuban In London.......I hope you don't mind? What beauty here!! That painting of Olivia is stunning....
My Prince is from South London and we still have one daughter there and one in Barry, Wales.
The recipe and the food look marvelous.
If you have a moment or two of your life that you'd care to waste, please visit me at my blog and do say hello.
Take good care and......
The soup sounds delicious and the story - wow. I have lived such a protected life.
I love the hat on the woman in the painting.
Amazing story and I love all the places you took us and this is such a great visual: The only thing I saw in a place of surpassing beauty, with the sun shining on the Dolomite spires, was a picture of defeat. Really great! I will be trying this soup too, Thank you :)
You are so generous.
Sharing your paintings
And everything with such great beauty. Thank you for all you give to all of us. Zuri and Diamond are nodding ♥
Found you over at Lola's kitchen.
You have a wonderful "voice" and your writing is easy to read - very poignant.
There're ripe undertones of melancholy, bouts of unease and the beginning of anxiety. That strong desire to embrace someone, anyone as soon as victory is announced could well translate into desire to be loved. Very well written and thoroughly enjoyable. So much so, that I hardly paid any attention to the recipe. Must go back now and read through it :-)!
Greetings from London.
Wow Tessa, I don't know if it is just the mood I am in, but I am totally teary for two young people.
Missed opportunities, loves lost and gained.
It is so beautiful and I see you Dad is beautiful just like you.
The painting is gorgeous.
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